New Year’s resolutions (some more homework for me)

The last days of the year are always a good moment to assess the previous twelve months and to make resolutions on what we wish for the year to come. Plus, I’ve been frequently shying away from expressing my deepest and most meaningful wishes in such an explicit way. I’m one of those people who somehow believe that what you really care for has to be kept untold. There must be some part of my mind believing that if you don’t say what you want to achieve out loud, in case of failure, you will be hurt a little less. Since I’m not sure that technique has…

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A new membership…

I’m proud to announce that this blog has just been included in the Mental Health Writers’ Guild. The Guild’s purpose is to encourage positive, informative, inspirational writing in respect of Mental Health. For further info, you can visit the Guild’s website. Thanks Kevin for granting my blog the membership and for his constant work on such a delicate and important matter!   If you’ve stumbled upon this page and reached the bottom of it, you’ve just made me happy, but if you really wish to make me thrilled and proud, please feel free to leave a comment here below. I’d…

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Hiding up from the Universe

I had a beautiful night last night. Curiously enough, I spent the hours right before my night out thinking of all the reasons why I shouldn’t go and stay home instead. But the truth is, when I got back home after having spent the evening out, I realised how amazing I had just been feeling and how silly and what a pity it would have been for me not to go. I was locking the gate behind me, when I distractedly looked up in the sky. A beautiful almost-full moon was shining down on me right in the middle of…

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Maybe just the touch of a hand…

I’m feeling feverish. My throat is probably going to explode in few minutes and it’s been raining for 3 days in a row so far; the spring-like days that have been deceiving us during the last weeks abdicated to a gloomy and autumnal weather. I’m feeling cold, my eyes are shiny and my head hurts a little. I’d definitely better go home and have some sleep. But I’m in my office instead, just back from lunch break in the canteen. But if I stop and feel what my guts are actually telling me, I really have no reason to run…

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Happy Birthday to… me and my blog!

One year ago today I published my first blog ever. After twelve months and a long road covered, it’s time for a little celebration. Happy Birthday to my blog! Thanks to anybody who’s stumbled upon these pages so far and to those who will from now on! 🙂   If you’ve stumbled upon this page and reached the bottom of it, you’ve just made me happy, but if you really wish to make me thrilled and proud, please feel free to leave a comment here below. I’d love to read your feedback, suggestions, opinions of any kind (and I’d love…

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Things I’ve Learned about Anxiety – Anxiety is not your fault

Do you think you are somehow responsible for your anxiety? Do you ever believe that the way you feel is your fault? Do you have the feeling that all this suffering has been caused by some mistake of yours? Do you think you somehow deserve it? If you replied yes to any of the above questions, trust me: you got it wrong. This is one of those cases in which it does exist a right or wrong answer. And the correct one here is “No”. You’re not responsible, it’s not your fault, it’s not because of some mistakes you’ve made,…

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Things I’ve Learned about Anxiety – Anxiety is a Transitory Status

I have to admit that I consider myself a Pro when it comes to anxiety. The quantity and the extent of anxiety I’ve experienced often make me feel like I have a PHD in that subject. For sure, each of us experiences suffering, as well as any other emotion, in a personal way, but still there are some basic concepts that – you can trust me on this, remember my PHD? – are true for every anxious soul out there. So let’s go with the things I’ve learned about anxiety: 1. Anxiety is a transitory status. I know this could…

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Distraction

Today I’d like to do share with you a poem I’ve loved very much since the first time I read it, few days ago. I don’t want to spend any more words explaining it or the meaning it has for me, I just hope it could give you the same peace it gives me every time I read it. Enjoy…   Distraction by Wislawa Szymborska I misbehaved in the cosmos yesterday. I lived around the clock without questions, without surprise. I performed daily tasks as if only that were required. Inhale, exhale, right foot, left, obligations, not a thought beyond getting…

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Of Gratitude and other Emotions – Part 2

Continued from: Of Gratitude and other Emotions – Part 1 Mid-December came and so did my last therapy session. With my little present in my bag, I was waiting for the best moment to pull it out and find the right words to present it to my therapist. I hadn’t managed to “prepare my speech”, since every time I sounded either too mushy or too cold in my rehearsals, so I had given up, trying to count on my generally-very-poor improvisation skills. When we approached the conclusion of the session and I was ready to turn to the chair to…

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Of Gratitude and other Emotions – Part 1

1 year and 6 days after everything began, 371 days after my anxiety had burst sweeping away most of the life I had known until then, it was time to say goodbye. By mid-december it was time for (what I thought it was going to be) my last therapy session. As you may have already read, I got back for some more sessions during the following spring, but at that time, December was the planned time for the ultimate closure of my therapy. As all of the other sessions, and understandably even more than that, the closing experience of such…

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